Update

Deployment Day Countdown: ~152

Wow it's gone fast. Surprisingly. I wish I could write a guide for women going through what I am going through. It's all about your attitude. Deployment doesn't have to be hard. You control your own emotions. Some days it feels totally unfair that no matter how badly I want to contact him, I just cannot. I have to wait for him. Every time it feels like it will be forever until he calls again, he does. After some turbulence, a near breakup to be exact, we are back on track. I forgot that I am not the only one who needs reminding. Reminding him how much I love and appreciate him is important. He is going through a lot of change and my goal, besides keeping myself happy, is to be his constant. I hope he feels like my support has gotten him through the tough stuff. His leave dates have changed and been pushed back, but we can do it! Every day I get closer to seeing him. I get butterflies just thinking about the hug and the first kiss. That feeling keeps me going

I love you Ben Gordon.


We're almost done!!!!